I am acutely aware of my own mortality. I am involved in people's deaths on a very regular basis - sometimes, because it's time for them to go - other times, the reasons are harder to comprehend. Death, even in its most natural of circumstances is a hard concept for most people to comprehend. And when the unexpected is to fault for death's early appearance - people's reactions range an entire spectrum of emotions.
All I know is that I go to work for a 12+ hour shift. We generally spend every moment trying to prolong the lives of 12 random people - 12 hours at a time. Every once in a while I come home with a new awareness of how truly unknown the future is.
So while my world may seem overwhelmingly stressful: trying to figure out how to raise 3 kids - maintain my sanity, drive the right child to the right place, what to feed them, how to dress them, that homework is done and teeth brushed - instead of the headache that usually begins right around bedtime - what I should be doing is realizing that there are people all around me who don't have these moments... to use a work quote - you should live each moment as if it were your last because any one of us could go to sleep tonight and "wake up dead..."

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